"Love/hate me"

I did it again, took on the bets (defied the odds)
I risked my heart,
Stood there emotionally blotted in front of you
This is me naked, can you love this person?

The pain from my last scar
Its still there
Yet I’m standing here again,
How many times must one person strip down?

After all those wounds
They make me think

All those restless night
Bleeding
Crying

Repeating

What if it is me?
Am I the person who keeps hurting myself?
Is it me who can’t love that person
Emotionally blotted
Naked, in the mirror?